“Miss Moore, why are you still single?”
“What are you looking for?”
Default short answers: “I wish I knew.” and “A liberal
Christian guy.” I say these jokingly
because obviously the answers are much more complex and, I’m fairly certain
they are not interested in the long answer.
Well….that’s a great question. Probably one that could best
be answered by someone other than myself because, if I had an answer to that
question I’d probably NOT be single. Ok
fine. That’s probably not true. A few weeks ago I was asked this question at
a 5 year old’s bday party where I was the sole single person (not only the only
single, but the only childless….that’s another post completely). “Are you just really picky?” and I responded
with an adamant, “Not at all, I just don’t like very many people.” (for the record I like most people….just
don’t like like them) Which warranted
the reply, “That means you’re picky!” Touché friend. Ok, so maybe I’m picky….but the alternative
would be settling right? I mean, I thought
knowing what you wanted was a good thing.
No?
I’ve never been the girl that dates a lot of people. I’ve had 2 “real relationships” and I’ve
probably “dated” no more than 7? guys.
Red flag right? I must be a commitment phobe…..false. I think it’s quite the opposite. I am not interested whatsoever in investing
in a relationship that I don’t know for certain will go “somewhere.” (disclaimer…I am interested in investing if
friendship relationships…it’s the other ones I’m talking about) Yeah, I know I
know…if you don’t try, it isn’t going to go ANYWHERE. Here lies the problem with the “I know what I
want” mentality. Maybe I’m not open to
anything other than the idea in my head I have about my future husband….maybe.
Yes. That’s definitely it.
So…throw out the list? Yes, there’s a list. And before you start judging me…it’s not
crazy. Ok ok…the very composition of the
list is crazy…but it wasn’t done seriously.
I was with a group of (married) girlfriends and it seemed like a fun
activity at the time. If you are one of
my close friends the list has become a topic of comical relief and
ridicule. My high school guy friends
think its funny to put themselves up to the rubric and see how they score out
of the 16 “requirements.” Before you
gasp, these 16 things are pretty standard...typical “good guy” qualities: {in
alphabetical order} ambitious, artistic, Christian, compassionate, earth
conscious, easy going, educated, funny, generous, intentional, loyal,
passionate, patient, spontaneous, and stylish. Too much to ask? Usually, first knee jerk reaction to the list
is, “Those are a bunch of contradictions.”
My short answer alone {Liberal Christian} is near impossible to come by. Or I get, “There’s a ton of guys I know like
that.” The truth is. I’ve met this guy before…more than once. And the formula was not perfect. Therefore, I had to amend the list. CHEMISRTY.
Not an adjective like the rest, but impossible to ignore….dare I say,
the most important. I’ve tried to date
the perfect guy (by my standard) and what wouldn’t you know, it didn’t work!
GASP. C’mon! The worst thing EVER is
meeting a guy you are compatible with but just can’t take to the next
step. Maybe I should revert to the olden
times where you were arranged to marry the perfect guy (by your parents
standard) and learn to love the other person.
It works….I’ve met these couples.
But we the people of the RomCom watching free United States have been
bombarded with the message that there is something more! And I want it!
“If you’re a bird, I’m a bird.” THAT’S what I want. That’s why I’m still sinlge. The End.